The results of the 21 day challenge

Time is passing so fast and I didn't even realized that I finished my 21 day challenge! Although I finished it and let's see how I completed it:

1. To wake up at the same time every day, to eat at the same time. - This point I feel I need a bit more time to complete it fully, because I am having my holidays now so I find it no sense to wake up every day at the same time:)

 
2. Start the day with lemon water and eat fruits till 12:00, after 18:00 time of the last meal of the day after just detox or herbal tea - the first part I still keep as an order and it really feels I am more energetic and my belly is started to get better as well. From the previous fact is directly coming that sometimes I was having my dinner around 9 or 10 in the night...oh well

3. Avoid consumption of sugar, flour, milk and alcohol - I successfully kept away myself from all this things. Instead of sugar I use agave syrup, instead of flour I use spelled flour, instead of milk I drink almond milk. Alcohol I don't drink at all!!! (during the 21 day it happened once)

4. Drink at least 2 l of water per day, no drinking 20 minutes before and after eating - I keep to not mix eating and drinking. The most challenging is to drink 2l of water a day.

5. Running at least 3-4 times per a week, I left myself to choose on which days - I already implemented this part to my life years ago, so moving, running, biking, working out is still a part of my every day life.

6. Morning Yoga - I preferred to do it in the afternoons, evenings combine with bodyart
Sundays dynamic meditation - I find it very challenging and not necessary to do it every week so I do it in every 2 weeks.

7. In addition I successfully eliminated coffee and cigarettes from my daily life! I cannot say that from time to time, occasionally I am not consuming them, but the most important for me now that I am not doing them every day!

I want to complete the list with some other things which made it easier for me: 

• I eat more slowly without music, tv, computer and I am focusing completely on the food, as a result it feels more filling.
• I started to eat more fruits and raw vegetables.
• I made one exception per a week when I make a cake so that means I eat some kinds of sweet:) (thanks to Marie for the idea)
• I bought at least 5 type of detox tea to not get bored of it:)
• I was avoiding the company of people who smoke, drink or party a lot!
• I sleep 8-9 hours per a day and I tried to go to bed before 12.
• If I was not able to keep "the rules" I didn't give up and I didn't feel guilty the next day I was keep on doing it

All and all this 21 day was a good frame for experimenting what feels good to do and to shape it according to my personal needs. During the whole time I was observing myself and it was very interesting to watch which are my weakest moments and how am I reacting to get over it. In a meantime I gained more self awareness. So now the time is coming to act upon them, on the little devil.

As a result I definitely feel better, more than ever! I am filled with energy, I have better digestion, I have clearer skin and mind, I have a stronger core :) And the most important is that I got really inspired by the change what I feel so I want to extend the process for 3 months and let's see what will happen!

And don't forget that good things come slow!

Big big transformation....

After 2 days of laying in bed without any motivation to get up and do something it really made me wonder... Where and why is this state of being coming for me like a dark, black cloud and taking everything, my thoughts, my soul, my motivation, my joy, my being? Where did my motivation and joy disappeared? Why I feel just simply miserable and hopeless??? Despite the fact that I am living my daily life very healthy, I eat healthy, I do sport every day, I am learning Dutch and read a lot, I am taking good care of myself than why the dark is coming again??? I know very well that is one pattern of mine I am just so fed up with it! At this time instead of being fed up with it I started to really observe it....and what I realized it just I am so OK, more than OK, I reached the top of my physical and mental conditions and now I want to really spread it around but where? I have a lot of energy and I feel that with all the things what I am doing I am just circulating back the energy to me that is why I feel I am not moving at all, instead of peace I am in a state of continuous anxiety:( Although I was looking for a place where I can volunteer, where I can work, help but I don't find it..it seems that this door is not opening for me.
Last weekend I met my very close Hungarian friends here in Amsterdam by accident, and it was so nice to spend some time with them after a long while and they said that they are missing me and they made me think that we can do some projects again together...and I remember 3 days ago I had a chitchat with my Mom and she said that in Hungary some people are really got interested in what I am doing and they want to do projects with me...I think that was the time when I got fucked. At that night I cannot sleep and I had a very very strong insight that I have to return HOME! My inner voice was really shouting with me. It really touched something in me.
I am really grateful for this time what I could spend here in the Netherlands with myself. I completely transformed. I feel I am ready to go back to my roots, to my real home where I truly belong.
I feel very grounded in what I want to create. I truly believe that returning back home I will find my possibilities and the supporting environment what I need to create my plans.
So just a few months to go, but at first I am so much looking forward to do cooking, my projects again. Until the start -20 November - I just want to enjoy my being without any worries and anxiety!!! Most probably I go home in February....when I finish everything.
This is the conclusion and the dark cloud started to vaporise BUT to arrive to this turning point I asked for help so I started to watch really amazing and inspiring talks on TEDx. It s worth spreading it!

                                         https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jpe-LKn-4gM
 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TT6qWghHkFI

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6XNrzmh0EVs

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vVsXO9brK7M

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sgbzbdxTm4E

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JDvoGev5_tk

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6P2nPI6CTlc

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=w-HYZv6HzAs

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IvtZBUSplr4

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jpe-LKn-4gM

Freedom = Confusion

After a very weird weekend (energy and emotional wise) I arrived to the point that my freedom gives me a lot of confusion on what to do how to fulfil it? Since I am doing quite successfully my 21 day challenge I feel that energy is raising in me and all around me. I have a feeling very often that I just don't know how to ground it or float it away. In the past when I had this feeling I used self-destructive ways to let the energy out. I felt the same on Saturday, in spite of a lot of running, biking, relaxing, meditating, cooking, learning Dutch, meeting people, watching series, listening to music, reading I felt that I will explode soon if something is not happening right now. Should I smoke, should I go party and get wasted....the answer was NO, so I started to look after some sweets. The only thing I found it was hot chocolate powder with tortilla:)))) I can tell you it was not really a pleasant dessert. I started to eat it and I was really hoping it will help somehow to put myself on the ground....after one and a half piece it really hit me in the head that what the fuck I am doing??? What is this self-destruction again??? So after the only thing I did it was watching TV till I fall asleep which I never do normally...
It was really a moment of enlightenment. I realized that for me this self-destructive activities are happening in order to pass time/to fulfil my unoccupied free time. I got the flash light that would it be better if I replace them with something self-constructive??? I feel that I am kind of over relaxed and eager to do things again after the very busy summer period.
So today is a new day and I decided to look after some places where I can do voluntary work and I can give to other people. I am ready to give again! And what I give it all comes back to me:)
Are you ready to give today?

Run Baby run!!!

After a whole day of thinking, hesitating and waiting I really felt the need to go out and run. I made my body so heavy with a lot of confusing thoughts. My mother gave me an assignment for this week which seem easy but I still not completed it. The assignment is that I have to visit at least 10 places in my neighbourhood which I like and I have to present myself in Dutch and ask for some voluntary work to do. The goal is to speak in Dutch rather than get a job. I prepared and learnt my introduction but I am still hesitating and waiting a lot to go. I am keep on asking myself why is it so difficult??? Why I am not able just to do it??? There is fear behind? But I have nothing to fear and nothing to loose! So I don't really understand what is happening...Why I am not able to just jump into it ? Am I taking this so serious instead of taking it playful? I did this many times so what is stopping me??? These thoughts made me run and run and run till I clear my mind completely. I put all this questions to resolve during the whole run and every time I felt I am getting tired I gathered my focus and I was keep on running and running. I just realized that the essence of running for me is focus and if there is focus here comes the empty space of the mind where is completely nothing just my body, my breath and the road to run. After 56 minutes of running I felt I let it out what had to go. The run was very liberating and I prepared myself for tomorrow to be able to put my thoughts aside and just go and play around with my introduction as in a theatre play:) Come my fears I will embrace you all!
Please keep your fingers crossed for me!

Good Morning Succesful People!

So what is it about happy people that makes them the way they are

???

Below are just some of the ways they separate themselves from the rest of the crowd.

1. They don’t hold grudges.

2. They think outside of the box.

3. They go by a routine and make exercise a part of it. It takes practice to develop healthy habits and stick with them. Once you do, your internal foundation will be strong.

4. They have a supportive tribe, thereby not wasting time with negative or toxic people.

5. They don’t care about what other people think. Does a tiger lose sleep over the opinion of sheep?

6. They don’t people please.

7. They see difficult and challenging situations as opportunities for personal growth. 

8. They consider handling rejection a skill and are resilient.

9. They make time for themselves. Whether it’s getting eight hours of sleep every night, finding 15 minutes to read the newspaper in peace or an hour to go to the gym, they make it a priority — just like everything else. When you take care of yourself, you have a bigger impact on others.

10. They are spiritual. This doesn't necessarily mean religious. It could mean setting aside time for reflection through yoga or meditation.

11. They practice deep breathing.

12. They know there isn’t such a thing as “having it all,” and they’re happy about that. Wouldn’t the world be a boring place for them otherwise?

13. Fear doesn't hold them back. They're ready to take risks.

14. They know how to say “NO,” and don’t hold back. These people have learned to set boundaries. Plenty of them.

15. They learned a great deal from other people whom they admire. Either they had a great mentor, or they took note of how those they aspired to be like handled various situations.

16. They follow their inner guidance. Not only do they have a vision, but they follow it.

17. They give without expecting anything in return.

18. They aren't pretentious or conceited.

19. Passion is what drives them. They authentically believe in what they're doing.  

20. They don't complain.

21. They live by their core values in both their professional and personal lives.

22. They're happy to swim against the tide.

23. They finish what they start.

24. They don't compare themselves to other people.

25. They want you to succeed, too.