Run Baby run!!!

After a whole day of thinking, hesitating and waiting I really felt the need to go out and run. I made my body so heavy with a lot of confusing thoughts. My mother gave me an assignment for this week which seem easy but I still not completed it. The assignment is that I have to visit at least 10 places in my neighbourhood which I like and I have to present myself in Dutch and ask for some voluntary work to do. The goal is to speak in Dutch rather than get a job. I prepared and learnt my introduction but I am still hesitating and waiting a lot to go. I am keep on asking myself why is it so difficult??? Why I am not able just to do it??? There is fear behind? But I have nothing to fear and nothing to loose! So I don't really understand what is happening...Why I am not able to just jump into it ? Am I taking this so serious instead of taking it playful? I did this many times so what is stopping me??? These thoughts made me run and run and run till I clear my mind completely. I put all this questions to resolve during the whole run and every time I felt I am getting tired I gathered my focus and I was keep on running and running. I just realized that the essence of running for me is focus and if there is focus here comes the empty space of the mind where is completely nothing just my body, my breath and the road to run. After 56 minutes of running I felt I let it out what had to go. The run was very liberating and I prepared myself for tomorrow to be able to put my thoughts aside and just go and play around with my introduction as in a theatre play:) Come my fears I will embrace you all!
Please keep your fingers crossed for me!