Big big transformation....

After 2 days of laying in bed without any motivation to get up and do something it really made me wonder... Where and why is this state of being coming for me like a dark, black cloud and taking everything, my thoughts, my soul, my motivation, my joy, my being? Where did my motivation and joy disappeared? Why I feel just simply miserable and hopeless??? Despite the fact that I am living my daily life very healthy, I eat healthy, I do sport every day, I am learning Dutch and read a lot, I am taking good care of myself than why the dark is coming again??? I know very well that is one pattern of mine I am just so fed up with it! At this time instead of being fed up with it I started to really observe it....and what I realized it just I am so OK, more than OK, I reached the top of my physical and mental conditions and now I want to really spread it around but where? I have a lot of energy and I feel that with all the things what I am doing I am just circulating back the energy to me that is why I feel I am not moving at all, instead of peace I am in a state of continuous anxiety:( Although I was looking for a place where I can volunteer, where I can work, help but I don't find it..it seems that this door is not opening for me.
Last weekend I met my very close Hungarian friends here in Amsterdam by accident, and it was so nice to spend some time with them after a long while and they said that they are missing me and they made me think that we can do some projects again together...and I remember 3 days ago I had a chitchat with my Mom and she said that in Hungary some people are really got interested in what I am doing and they want to do projects with me...I think that was the time when I got fucked. At that night I cannot sleep and I had a very very strong insight that I have to return HOME! My inner voice was really shouting with me. It really touched something in me.
I am really grateful for this time what I could spend here in the Netherlands with myself. I completely transformed. I feel I am ready to go back to my roots, to my real home where I truly belong.
I feel very grounded in what I want to create. I truly believe that returning back home I will find my possibilities and the supporting environment what I need to create my plans.
So just a few months to go, but at first I am so much looking forward to do cooking, my projects again. Until the start -20 November - I just want to enjoy my being without any worries and anxiety!!! Most probably I go home in February....when I finish everything.
This is the conclusion and the dark cloud started to vaporise BUT to arrive to this turning point I asked for help so I started to watch really amazing and inspiring talks on TEDx. It s worth spreading it!

                                         https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jpe-LKn-4gM
 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TT6qWghHkFI

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6XNrzmh0EVs

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vVsXO9brK7M

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sgbzbdxTm4E

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JDvoGev5_tk

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6P2nPI6CTlc

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=w-HYZv6HzAs

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IvtZBUSplr4

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jpe-LKn-4gM

Sweet Sunday Afternoon

This rainy,windy, cold weather didn't give me other option for the afternoon, so I decided to make my favourite cake today. This is the perfect time for carrot cake!:) I tried to make the healthiest version of it now, so here I present the recipe for you in order to bake your homey, warm and delightful sweet.

Suzy's carrot cake

dry ingredients

180 gr of whole grain spelled flour

2 teaspoon of bio baking powder

3 teaspoon of cinnamon powder
pinch of salt for balance

liquid ingredients

3 eggs

3/4 cup of brown sugar (cup=200ml)

100 ml of coconut oil

5 middle sized rasped carrots

topping:

200 gr mascarpone cheese with agave syrup 

almond flakes

Put the oven for 180 degrees. First mixed well the dry ingredients. Secondly mix the liquid ingredients as well. Mix together dry and liquid adding the liquid slowly to it. At the end you add the rasped carrots. Be careful with mixing, you have to be fast because the baking powder start to react very fast. If you are hesitating with mixing and you are not on time you risk the cake to stay down and to break on top while baking. The cake needs approximately 30-40 minutes to be ready it really depends on your oven. To check the cake if it s ready or not you can use a thin knife, just put it into the cake and if the dough doesn't stay on it it is perfectly ready!

The cake needs to cool down a bit to put the topping on it. Slush the cream on the cake gently and after scatter the almond flakes on top!

Serve it with a cup of coffee, hot chocolate or vanilla chai as I do!

Enjooooy!!!

Chia seeds

While I was shopping in the bio market I just bumped into chia seeds. It can be a great replacement for multi vitamins and a great supplement for more healthy nutrition. Winter is coming and the body needs more care to prepare. I immediately bought them and I cannot wait to implement it to my daily routine and enjoy the benefit of them. Why? Here is the answer...

Here are ten benefits to using chia seeds

1. Nutritious. Chia seed provides calcium (5 x more than cows milk)and protein to your tissues. The seeds are also rich in boron, which helps the body assimilate and use calcium. The nutrients also support proper brain functioning.

2. Great for Hydration. This seed can soak up twelve times its weight in water. When inside your body, the seeds help you stay hydrated longer, and retain electrolytes in your bodily fluids.

3. Easily digestible. The shells are easily broken down, even when swallowed whole. This is an improvement over flax seed, which have to be ground up to be digested properly. If you eat flax seed whole, it will just pass straight through you.

4. Concentrated goodness. If you could only take one cup of food for a few days, I'd choose chia ! The food value per volume is simply unbelievable. You don't need much. The Aztecs said they could survive on two table spoonfuls per day!

5. Mild tasting. Unlike some seeds, the flavour is very mild some say no taste at all. The mild neutral taste makes it so easy to put in sauces, smoothies, breads, puddings, and whatever you want. They won't really change the taste, but will add to your nutrition intake in a big way!

6. Energy enhancing. The health pioneer Paul Bragg did an experiment an endurance hike with friends. They divided up into a chia-eating group and another group, who ate whatever they wanted. The group eating only chia seeds finished the hike four hours, twenty seven minutes before the others, most of whom didn't even finish at all.

7. Versatile. These super seeds can be used to replace less-healthy fat in just about any kind of recipe. You can use them uncooked in salad dressings, spreads, fruit shakes, ice cream, and just about anything you want. You can also add them to cookies, cakes, muffins, Bread and other baked goods.

8. Weight loss with chia seeds . Yes, the seeds will help you lose weight, for two reasons. The first reason is that they are so filling that you will eat less of other foods ( they stop you snacking between meals too). The second reason is that they actually bulk up and cleanse your body of old "junk" in your intestines.

9. Endurance enhancing. Chia seeds are known as the "Indian Running Food". Also, the ancient Aztec warriors used chia seed during their conquests. If you are a runner chia seed helps with the stamina and endurance on the runs, some of which are several hours long!

10. Regenerating. After eating, the nutrients travel to the cells very quickly due to the ease in digestion and assimilation. Use them when you want to build or regenerate healthy body tissue and repair injured muscles.

Go more, go raw!

I feel like diving more into healthy nutrition since I really feel the benefits of my 21 day challenge:) I am going to give some practical tips how to make your food more healthy, green, raw, tasty and good looking and why your body will enjoy it!

• steam your vegetables - not in a lot of water, instead use steaming filter, put it above a water in a stainless steel pot and cover it for a few minutes. As a result you will get carefully prepared vegetables with a very delicious, pure taste
• braising - instead of oil use water or the combination of water-oil (cold pressed olive oil, coconut oil, palm oil)
• avoid the use of stomach irritant spices - pepper, chilli, ginger, cinnamon, clove, nutmeg, curry in big quantities, of course a little pinch is definitely allowed to spice up the taste
• avoid the vinegar based sauces and vegetables - balsamic vinegar, white wine vinegar, mustard, ketchup, pre-prepared salad sauces (it is better to use vinegar for cleaning, against a water fog is the most efficient you can imagine what does it in your stomach grrrrrr....), instead use lemon
• fully exclude food with high fat and protein content from animal origin, heated oils and smoked products
• use cold pressed oils as flexseed oil, hempseed oil, borage oil, safflower oil, avocado oil, sesame oil, grape seed oil etc. Flaxseed oil or borage oil or safflower oil are for continuous use!
• any kinds of vegetables are more than welcome to consume! - mostly fresh or steamed, can be frozen, but they contains less vitamins and they don't have the chi:) - avoid everything from the can
• for every meal the composition of the food has to look like 50% raw components and 50% cooked components
• NEVER mix vegetables with fruits! (they are going to ferment in the stomach because of the fructose in the fruits)
• avoid eating desserts (including fruits) after the main meal because they are going to ferment in the stomach and it can very often cause a puffy belly...
• get rid of sugar (honey as well)- for sweetening use steevia, marple syrup, rice or agave syrup, xilit (birch sugar) - I tried all of them I recommend agave for me this is the winner
•  in the morning consume carbohydrate-rich food - fruit salad with nuts, all kinds of porridges, oat flake tarts etc.
• side dish can be wild rice, brown rice, black rice, couscous, bulgur, quinoa, amaranth, millet, buckwheat, whole grain pasta, brown/black rice noodles (no white rice, white pasta and potatoes)
• wholemeal bread, pastries can be eaten - best is from wheat flour
• for dinner more salads, beans, lentils, chickpeas recommended
• diary consumption is not recommended -  instead cereal milk (rice, coconut, almond and hazelnut my favourite ones), vegetable based cheese and cream 
• consumption of processed, preserved food is prohibited!!!
• don't snack between meals!!! - instead drink more water or herbal/detox tea or eat an apple or nuts
•  eat germs every day!!!

Hmm hmmm it seems quite shocking for the first time BUT I am sure that I can make delicious, various and fulfilling food! It will require a pinch of creativity and I am up for it! Let's give it a try!

This was my lunch today and I can tell you it was really delicious, light and filling!

Home made hummus with a pinch of chilli, steamed broccolis, bulgur with sun dried tomatoes, carotts, raddish and germs

Eet Smakkelijk!

Connect with the energy flow, do BodyART!

The last weeks I was running a lot and my body is not so grateful for it. Now I feel everywhere muscle and bone ache. I can say it is not the most pleasant one, but I feel I am alive and the pain always reminds me to do something different, something more smooth. The weather is also not really nice today, windy and rainy with a bit of sunshine, very crazy I say so... Since I am friend with the weather here it can not stop me anyhow:) So I decided to do something more light for my body, mind and soul and create my own sunshine between the four walls:) So this is the perfect time for BodyART!

BodyART was created by a Swiss gymnast and dancer Robert Steinbacher in collaboration with Alexa Lee. The method is based on principles of yin and yang and combines elements of yoga, pilates, dance and tai chi. The top priority in BodyART is to treat a human being as a single unit.It helps to strengthen and stabilize all aspects of human movements. It perfectly combines functional training and classical breathing techniques to create a synergy of physical training with mental relaxation.

I warmly recommend you to do it at home for yourself if you are tired of heavy exercises. This practice is a great help for the body and for you to connect with your energy flow! Go for it!

Click here and you can start 

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YVe9jqx0dqk&list=PLGHWERY0UxwBk_41U37Aqdqzwerd-Ic-u

Freedom = Confusion

After a very weird weekend (energy and emotional wise) I arrived to the point that my freedom gives me a lot of confusion on what to do how to fulfil it? Since I am doing quite successfully my 21 day challenge I feel that energy is raising in me and all around me. I have a feeling very often that I just don't know how to ground it or float it away. In the past when I had this feeling I used self-destructive ways to let the energy out. I felt the same on Saturday, in spite of a lot of running, biking, relaxing, meditating, cooking, learning Dutch, meeting people, watching series, listening to music, reading I felt that I will explode soon if something is not happening right now. Should I smoke, should I go party and get wasted....the answer was NO, so I started to look after some sweets. The only thing I found it was hot chocolate powder with tortilla:)))) I can tell you it was not really a pleasant dessert. I started to eat it and I was really hoping it will help somehow to put myself on the ground....after one and a half piece it really hit me in the head that what the fuck I am doing??? What is this self-destruction again??? So after the only thing I did it was watching TV till I fall asleep which I never do normally...
It was really a moment of enlightenment. I realized that for me this self-destructive activities are happening in order to pass time/to fulfil my unoccupied free time. I got the flash light that would it be better if I replace them with something self-constructive??? I feel that I am kind of over relaxed and eager to do things again after the very busy summer period.
So today is a new day and I decided to look after some places where I can do voluntary work and I can give to other people. I am ready to give again! And what I give it all comes back to me:)
Are you ready to give today?

Run Baby run!!!

After a whole day of thinking, hesitating and waiting I really felt the need to go out and run. I made my body so heavy with a lot of confusing thoughts. My mother gave me an assignment for this week which seem easy but I still not completed it. The assignment is that I have to visit at least 10 places in my neighbourhood which I like and I have to present myself in Dutch and ask for some voluntary work to do. The goal is to speak in Dutch rather than get a job. I prepared and learnt my introduction but I am still hesitating and waiting a lot to go. I am keep on asking myself why is it so difficult??? Why I am not able just to do it??? There is fear behind? But I have nothing to fear and nothing to loose! So I don't really understand what is happening...Why I am not able to just jump into it ? Am I taking this so serious instead of taking it playful? I did this many times so what is stopping me??? These thoughts made me run and run and run till I clear my mind completely. I put all this questions to resolve during the whole run and every time I felt I am getting tired I gathered my focus and I was keep on running and running. I just realized that the essence of running for me is focus and if there is focus here comes the empty space of the mind where is completely nothing just my body, my breath and the road to run. After 56 minutes of running I felt I let it out what had to go. The run was very liberating and I prepared myself for tomorrow to be able to put my thoughts aside and just go and play around with my introduction as in a theatre play:) Come my fears I will embrace you all!
Please keep your fingers crossed for me!